lately.

hello hello. i usually have the tendency to blog late at night, or when i'm emotional and i've made myself stop doing that because i can write things way worse than they are. so here we go, it's noon on the dot, i've been awake a couple hours, sitting here drinking lemon and ginger tea watching videos on youtube of my girl. it's my favourite movie ever, and well, here enjoy a couple minutes:



so my last M.A.C interview, i came home made ramen noodles for lunch and heard God so clearly say "i have better for you" as i was hovering over the hot hub. i remember saying outloud "i am not hearing this right now". so ever since the last interview i've kind of tried to forget about it, and figured that job isn't for me. it tiring hearing that after four interviews, and if i'd heard it earlier then i wouldn't have bothered or tried so hard... but then again perhaps doubted what i was hearing. for the record- i'm supposed to hear back this week, they've got two days left, and as it looks, seems highly unlikely i've got the position. i'm honestly worn out and tired. my energy is minimal! yesterday i phoned them asking when i'd hear back and they said they'd let me know through the mail. probably another letter saying sorry. so i cried a lot, emailed my dad, forgot to eat all day, and worked out for two and a half hours but i'm all better now. the waiting period can just be so hard, especially when it feels although it's dragging. your destiny and purpose gets all confused and seems to spiral downwards really fast... it was funny, i stumbled on a tithemi podcast on destiny out of no where, and it encouraged me.

so here's a couple babies i wanna show you. levi and and eden joy. i loved cuddling them for hours the other day. eden joy is ten weeks old, and the most peaceful baby i've ever held. she's great. and levi, what a dude. his eyes are intense.









i've been taking lots of polaroid photos lately. i've been borrowing an awesome polariod camera, crazy flash on it and everything. i got my typewriter back the other day, so i've definitely been using that too.






...and finally :) this song is pretty much word for word my life right now. it has been on repeat till i fall asleep at night, literally. i hope you are all doing amazing!



♥