DAY OF THE LION

last week in HK.

2009-10-26T02:48:00.000-07:00

so bummed to be going in a few days, but a girls gotta get back to work and start saving the £ all over again. saving and budgeting is my new hobby. it's a relief to be debt free!

all my love! <33

waxing

2009-10-20T10:05:00.000-07:00

HURT today! ahemmmm. but yes, the lady waxing me burned me. apparently it’ll go down tomorrow or the next. i feel ugly!! :(

oh dear.

♥

sunday - eighteenth october, 09.

2009-10-18T08:07:00.000-07:00

katymiller.tumblr.com

asian snacks are the best!

my amazing new camera. guarding this thing with my life! now let me take photos of you :)

♥

october 15th 09.

2009-10-15T08:00:00.000-07:00

i want to be with you in the night. when i fall asleep you are there; pressing against my skin, as i breath in your air. when i wake you are still with me. i breathe me out, because i don’t like me, i like you. you are the only one i know. be my meditation, morning and evening. prepare me to see you, and search my heart. you hear me and you care for me. thank you for your patience, thank you for waiting on me. thank you that you passionately pursue me with your love.

“Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.” - revelation three verse twenty.

SO! today! baked some GOODS!

another interesting event, i went down to meet my mum at the gold coast - it’s a marina where boats dock, and its like an outside mall, i guess you could compare it to victoria gardens.. it’s just down from our place here… and anyway, on the way home we got into a taxi and this taxi driver for sure, had some personality goin’ on.

fish tanks on the back of the seats?! wild. i’ve never seen that before.

tonight we had bible study. it’s always so humbling. we open our home up to the refugees and eat and discuss together. mostly they’re all french speaking which is really fun, i enjoy speaking with them. they have been through more than you could imagine and have some incredible stories. mostly they’re separated from their families and children, don’t know where they are, dead or alive, and haven’t heard from them. they’re amazing prayer warriors and sing to the Lord with all their hearts. i sat and listened and watched them all evening. they’re such sincere people.

one of them was on the phone at the table for a long time and his friend threw him this. was funny.

i got given some hello kitty gifts! WIN!

oh, ran out of this today. bummed, and i don’t wana buy it here… cause with work back in england i get it for 65% off… this photos just me being bored.

goodnight from hong kong :)

<33

hey from hong kong.

2009-10-10T06:33:00.000-07:00

i'm getting worse and worse at this blogging thing. as if anyone cares? me. my journal sucks too, i am not keeping on top of things until the other night. i resurrected my journal picked up my bible and read a few really awesome verses that encouraged me. i thought to share. hope thats cool with you.

"in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight"

"the Lord disciplines those He loves."

"She is more profitable than silver, and yields better returns than gold. she is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compare with her. long life is in her right hand; in her left hand are riches and honor. her ways are pleasant ways and all her paths are peace. she is a tree of life to hose who embrace her; those who lay hold of her will be blessed" - proverbs 3.14.

"every word of God is flawless; He is a shield to those who take refuge in him". -proverbs 30V5.

"Lord do not refuse me before I die, keep falsehood and lies far from me." - 30V6

it's amazing to me how the Lord just sometimes, literally plops things on your lap, yet you continue to argue how you don't hear from God, but i believe it's all in taking time out. i've been so busy lately and inside i feel like God has been distant, because i'm so busy. what an anticlimax hey? the second i take time out, He's there hanging out waiting patiently on me. what a man.

life is so good, i'm loving being around my family and talking to people i love. i've been running everyday, it's becoming easy. i remember when running was such hard work for me... now thirty minutes is becoming enjoyable. there are certain people in my life right now who brighten up my days beyond belief. they've been encouraging and so full of energy, life and drive. it's been inspiring and made me feel like i'm progressing and developing as an adult by talking and being around them.

my eyes are burning.

it's been a wonderfully busy day. it's my dad's birthday. if you know him i'm sure you love and respect him as much as me. he's so sincere, strong, smart, Godly, fun, super cool, and kind. gentle and wise. a friend and an amazing father. sometimes he's so generous to my friends and people around it makes me feel uncomfortable... but he always responds wth "God has blessed me, so i want to bless others. God gives me everything, so i give it away". i watched him today as he was texting thinking, wow, i'm so forturnate to have such an incredible dad.

hong kong heat is still here, in the 100's for sure, but thankfully humidity is getting less and less. i'm not complaining, i know england is freezing everyone to death right now - i might be going some where colder and not returning to the UK either :) i'll keep you posted.

i got handed a garth brooks cd today and pulled out a pair of my mum's country western cowboy boots. she's been wearing them all night. i showed off the best bit of line dancing that i know. hanging out with people from the south makes me happy and they're so determined to find me a southern man, yet i've never been so disinterested in a romantic relationship in my life. i'm so busy with other things. i was perhaps 'obsessed' with the idea of being with someone last year and it seems to have taken a one eighty degree turn on me. it's definitely peaceful for me to be so steadfast on it. those madly in love - i love you for it.

i'll post photos another time. i've got plenty, but for once i just wanted to talk to myself.

♥

katy.

mr wolf.

2009-09-25T20:02:00.000-07:00

i want these next!!

nail art.

2009-09-23T07:36:00.000-07:00

if you think fake nails are gross, "butt nasty", "skank" (in the words of my twin), don't look ahead, you might vomit. haha. i've never really looked into this till today. in asia nail art is huge, and a lot of people have it. i found some crazy stuff. i DO NOT! want it -- just for the record. i was just looking....

all i keep thinking is how heavy this must be. you must lose pieces to your nails all the time. haha. being a girl, man.
♥

moving keep on moving.

2009-09-18T14:22:00.001-07:00

see you in seven weeks england.

packed up a room, one day of work left, heading to london, did a vidal sassoon shoot that took all day, doing make up fora music video next month, met lots of new bearded tattooed friends. ha. i am loving Jesus.

in a bit blogger.

-katy.

stuff.

2009-09-10T05:58:00.000-07:00

some stuff that i found while browsing the other day. none of it belongs to me.

today.

2009-09-02T02:48:00.000-07:00

i grew a stash and just realised birds are in pretty much in all these photos. i like birds.

2009-08-26T10:44:00.001-07:00

Love give me the ability to speak things i've never said or thought before, to effect a person i've never thought to before.
Lord, you make the impossible, possible.
the rain woke me up and it reminded me of the day i asked you to kiss me
you told me how you would, and you delivered.
i love that you are God and you can do all things, i knew you could.
do you remember when i'd sit on that big rock in hawaii, writing you letters
and every night i'd walk home, with arms full of oranges that i found by the tennis courts!
i'm sorry sometimes it takes my small faith to see things in order to believe, forgive the humanity in me.
i love the way you love me and never leave me, when i wake you are still with me, when i fall asleep you are there;
pressing against my skin, as i breath in your air.
i breathe me out, because i don't like me, i like you.
you are the only one i know.
you forgive my sins and wash me by the well where i think back on the past that isn't going anywhere,
it doesn't dissolve, it's still here. i've learned a lot.
you are my relief, and you are my love.
I desire you, as you refresh me.
you are bigger and better than all things.
how do i give my life away? 'cause i think i have life to give.
i am your witness.

ps. i'm making a tumblr. it's been sitting there for five months, but its more complicated than this.
also, i'm really into the colour mustard at the moment.
i'm using film more than digital these days.
i'm going to hong kong soon and can't wait.
i still want my bow.
november followed by winter, can't come soon enough.
i'm shredding my fingers off writing new songs, i find peace there.

i love it when it rains.
♥

Psalm 23.

2009-08-20T16:05:00.001-07:00

A David Psalm

1-3 God, my shepherd! I don't need a thing.
You have bedded me down in lush meadows,
you find me quiet pools to drink from.
True to your word,
you let me catch my breath
and send me in the right direction.

4 Even when the way goes through
Death Valley,
I'm not afraid
when you walk at my side.
Your trusty shepherd's crook
makes me feel secure.

5 You serve me a six-course dinner
right in front of my enemies.
You revive my drooping head;
my cup brims with blessing.

6 Your beauty and love chase after me
every day of my life.
I'm back home in the house of God
for the rest of my life.

bazan.

2009-08-19T13:58:00.000-07:00

i love this guy, this song, his attitude, his words, and would love to see him play a third time. last time was at fuller, california, with some great friends. before that, in chicago. i miss america a lot.

2009-08-17T10:18:00.000-07:00

more pretty things.

2009-08-04T07:07:00.000-07:00

so much beautiful stuff out there. every-time i look i get overwhelmed. can't blame a girl for liking pretty things, comon.

i read that this couple collected leaves and other things for over a year.

i did this in my bedroom once. felt a little over powering though, but outside, different story i suppose.

glad other people are suckers for pretty birds.

crazy!

cute and intricate.

-katy.

black jag.

2009-07-26T16:28:00.000-07:00

so i went to school with vicky in belgium. known her for years. she's similar to me, moved all over the globe, family in belgium yet she lives in america. we were talking and she's all: "hey this is random but what animal best represents me?" so strange enough, we talked about it and i asked: "what about me?"

vicky - "a black jaguar because they're very rare and mysterious and independent, they're complex and highly intelligent and obviously they're extremely sleek and graceful."

do people usually ask this question? i've had the "what animal would you get tattooed on you" before. but not this one.. if i could choose, i'd be a lion of a dolphin. haha. it's way more interesting coming from someone else though. they have their reasons :)

SOooOoo.

what would you be???

♥

pretty things!

2009-07-24T05:26:00.000-07:00

my my, this afternoon i've been looking online at vintage sites, wedding sites etc. there is so much good stuff out there. i'm such an arts and crafts sucker, love stationary, stamps, and all that type of thing. so after looking over a hundred pages of things i had to say stop... these are some pictures of stuff i've either already done or will do and love!

love this junk. pen pals i'ma use this one on you next :)

i thought this was such a cute wedding invite!

wedding stuff i loved!

this is wayyy cute!

baby blue and brown together has always been a favourite for me. the flowers on top not so sure about, but its still adorable!

i guess since i use type writers and stamps a lot this was kinda fun. i know it's for save the date, but you could do it for anything.

these next few ideas i ADORE! and will definitely do. this blew my mind!

i've frozen photographs before for an art project... but flowers! dang!

and for some reason this stole my heart. i think it's absolutely delightful!

sigh. inspired! love it. can't wait to incorporate photographic film, photographs, tags and all types of stuff. i'm sure there will be plenty more in the next blog. these days off work are fun!

♥

blah.

2009-07-20T03:58:00.000-07:00

day off, yippie... looking for videos, i found a few i'd made in 07 on hong kong. i'll show the airplane video next. this is obviously a bunch of short clips put together to make you dizzy. music credit goes to copeland. enjoy!

and here's california... just cause i miss it a lot.

tired.

2009-07-15T03:33:00.000-07:00

"this is the first day of my life
i’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
but now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
and I’d probably be happy.”

ashley came and left. hope saint louis appreciates her. generous girl.

i work hard. clean, journal, write letters, take photos when i'm not. i talk to Jesus all day everyday. i'm so worn out after i get home, cook and go to sleep. i like eight hours a night, if i get eight hours, i count myself lucky. today it was gloomy, rainy, cold and windy. quite a nice change.

mac events. freelancing. wedding party to make up on august first.
mac product update event today. lots of free make up. loved it. fastest passing day i've ever been in.

rebound girl X2.
ragdale spa for a pampering sesh with grandma. had my first facial. the body massage was weak.

missing a male figure in my life. aka. dad, brother.

rescued hello kitty from storage. i miss her sister. still have to find her.

shower. bed.
love.

june #2.

2009-06-23T12:47:00.001-07:00

i got a call- i ended up getting the M.A.C job - i'm tired of talking about it. now applying to work at VANS also. just cause, i love vans. i've had an amazing couple days hanging out with my friend sarah. i got back this morning. i was thinking about people i really like and wondering what i find so admirable about them. i laughed a lot yesterday, it hurt. i also went to an art show. didn't like that much, but what i did like, i enjoyed.

i press flowers, and like the idea of preserving things that are beautiful and fragile, and how they relate to us personally. this dress was crafted together with petals.

and sarah took me into a dark closet and said "you'll probably love this"... and she was right... hanging flowers that had been soaked in PVA glue - another favoruite thing i love to do. PVA makes crap look so much better. ha. man it reeked in there though!

today i met up with a friend from scotland who i've not seen in a year (probably read this at some point huh... since you asked about my blog today..). had a couple meetings today also... busy days... tomorrow i'm taking the train to hang out with some babies, then grocery shop, house clean, and cellgroup at my house.

i'm feeling super close to God and it's completing me in so many ways. especially after "feeling" not much for so long, but being diligent as much as possible regardless. i have His assurance and i've been talking to friends about the fear of Him a lot lately... like even when you enter heaven, it takes preparation and cleansing to see Him because he is just that awesome, and majestic. awesome - that word should probably be used less by me for everyday things, and used when i talk about His sovereignty. i like the way He renews me, and teaches me things privately, and personally... incredibly intimately.... in a way i can understand.... sometimes :) album leaf is seriously putting me to sleep at nine forty this evening. it's still so bright out, i love these days. bath time, with the windows wide open.

ps- suuuupa bummed doom aren't coming here anymore. european labels need to get their junk together!

lately.

2009-06-18T03:05:00.000-07:00

hello hello. i usually have the tendency to blog late at night, or when i'm emotional and i've made myself stop doing that because i can write things way worse than they are. so here we go, it's noon on the dot, i've been awake a couple hours, sitting here drinking lemon and ginger tea watching videos on youtube of my girl. it's my favourite movie ever, and well, here enjoy a couple minutes:

so my last M.A.C interview, i came home made ramen noodles for lunch and heard God so clearly say "i have better for you" as i was hovering over the hot hub. i remember saying outloud "i am not hearing this right now". so ever since the last interview i've kind of tried to forget about it, and figured that job isn't for me. it tiring hearing that after four interviews, and if i'd heard it earlier then i wouldn't have bothered or tried so hard... but then again perhaps doubted what i was hearing. for the record- i'm supposed to hear back this week, they've got two days left, and as it looks, seems highly unlikely i've got the position. i'm honestly worn out and tired. my energy is minimal! yesterday i phoned them asking when i'd hear back and they said they'd let me know through the mail. probably another letter saying sorry. so i cried a lot, emailed my dad, forgot to eat all day, and worked out for two and a half hours but i'm all better now. the waiting period can just be so hard, especially when it feels although it's dragging. your destiny and purpose gets all confused and seems to spiral downwards really fast... it was funny, i stumbled on a tithemi podcast on destiny out of no where, and it encouraged me.

so here's a couple babies i wanna show you. levi and and eden joy. i loved cuddling them for hours the other day. eden joy is ten weeks old, and the most peaceful baby i've ever held. she's great. and levi, what a dude. his eyes are intense.

i've been taking lots of polaroid photos lately. i've been borrowing an awesome polariod camera, crazy flash on it and everything. i got my typewriter back the other day, so i've definitely been using that too.

...and finally :) this song is pretty much word for word my life right now. it has been on repeat till i fall asleep at night, literally. i hope you are all doing amazing!

♥

june o'nine.

2009-06-06T18:07:00.000-07:00

He delights in me.
to Him, i'm as bright as the moon.
He told me. under a tree, in a deserted park the other night.

then a man came chasing toward me asking me for my number, after a bit of a chat and telling him i didn't have my phone, or know my number (ahem!) eventually he carried on running as i walked the other way out. i've been to a chicken place here, and didn't end up paying for my food, the chef; a guy there wants to take me to his homeland. his friend walked in and was dark skinned with the brightest ocean eyes, so i mentioned it. they barely spoke english so they thought i was talking about the drugs he was on and how i could see it in his eyes. yeah, then i got offered to go smoke, but no. this guy ended up finding me in this same park a few days later, asking me if i had a boyfriend. thankfully my phone rang and he said "i'll be back in two minutes", he turned around and i ran home for dear life.

i just walked back in the door from hanging in london. i just decided to go see my friend jordan visiting from california who goes back to CA tuesday, also wanted to see anna for breakfast, and say hey to my big brother. was an eventful couple days, and i loved it. i bumped into my friend jeff in the middle of london (which is crazy, cause it's huge), and that was super nice to catch up and get coffee.

myself & anna.

looking at awesome art with jordan.

there was plenty i liked, but i particularly liked these because i love portraiture.

it's my last demonstration with m.a.cosmetics on monday, i've been waiting so long and there are so many interviews for this position it's beginning to seem rather tedious. i care as much still, but at the same time, i know what i'm capable of and if i don't get it the job it's not the end of the world, but i really do want it.

i hope you're all doing well. i like how in random emails or conversation people mention how they've been keeping up to date with me on here, when really i think no one ever reads it and wonder why i even bother. but it's good to know from time to time someone does.

oh, bangs.

-katy.

:D

2009-05-23T06:43:00.000-07:00

my twin brother is so awesome!!! i can't wait to get these in the mail. i'm crazy about these watches and look how many he got me. oh dang! i have a pink one i love already. i ruined the surprise cause... twins... we know each others brains... oh he's the best. hong kong is SO good for stuff like that. i miss it.

other than that! i had my second M.A.C interview that went so much better than i could have ever imagined. she said my portfolio's was one of the best she's ever seen - and that it made her wonder why she's not done what i have. also, she asked me how i felt about a manager roll - that just blew my mind. she said she couldn't help but mention how good i looked. i mean what? this is crazy! but i'll always remember, the first thing she said to me was "i love your nails" so, heres a crazy photo.

back to M.A.C - i should be going up for the third demonstration - she said over 18 applicants have gone through just in one day, and now it's down to five, then if i win i get sent away to another city and get trained and stuff under M.A.C, you've no idea how badly i want it! really would be a dream out of three major ones come true. i've had such encouraging things sent to me about it through the mail - such a surprise from friends. i guess they know how long in line i've been waiting for this opportunity:

so i'm taking a model and doing her up in front of a bunch of "judges", and i want to win... but so does everyone else. i'm just going to do my best and see what happens. the manager gave me a lovely hug goodbye, and i will be in to see her soon to talk about the "look" i'm going to do!

HIS LOVE! IS MORE FAITHFUL THAT THE MORNING! - the one line by phil wickham i can't seem to get out of my head at all. last night i hung out with triplets! it confused me so much, but was so warming. they were all crazy and looked the same, how amazing creation and the human body is! wonderful!

to end today, it'd be perfect to be in hong kong swimming in the pool at midnight drinking lemon tea. alas! i'm here. back to REALITY! i'll talk a walk on some green grass instead. bye friends! ♥

ps- i cant freaking wait for impending doom to get hre. :)

♥

sick.

2009-05-20T02:31:00.000-07:00

i'm the sickest i've been in so long - body aches, fever, constant headache, nose, the HEAVIEST eyes, you know the drill. so not fun but hey. it is what it is. i wonder why soup is so good when sick... i dont know but it is, probably the only thing i can taste, and it's super hot - the way i make it :) i have a second M.A.C (cosmetics) interview on friday which i'm way stoked about. it's one of my dream jobs, so if you could say a prayer or two to help me, that'd be awesome. i've a feeling i won't get it... but we will see. i've been singing lots of johnny cash today, and love it. i got bangs dyed it back to black.. here's my sweet $5 wallgreens CA tshirt!

i've got a few more images to edit for my portfolio so i'm off to do that, but hope you're having a wonderful day, wherever it is you are! all my love - katy.

♥

distance.

2009-05-10T18:10:00.001-07:00

england is being pretty.

When I receive his love I become free
When I give him love, I become alive
Help me start afresh, I want to trust you with my life.
Move mountains, because I cant.
I dont like the thoughts in my head, or the words off my mouth,
I don't like being so dirty, so unclean,
I dont like feeling this distant, but I've never felt so distant before.
I dont want to lose your anointing, I don't want to lose it all.

My heart doesn't work without you.

life, is this right now. i'm no entertainment. thrash and burn tour coming up, guest passes thanks to kristin and ryan. life is transforming and re shaping. it's interesting. i'm growing up. i'm a year older and amazed i still use the same organs and heart as i did at 1 day old. take Him seirously otherwise what on earth are we doing.

surprise flowers....

i dont like that love and curse come off the same tongue. it's been hard having so much fun from people that don't love the things i love; it's stolen my attention lately. other than that; pen pals, get those pens rolling, i now have an address, for this month at least.

grace.
♥